Julie (decadentdream) wrote,

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Stand my ground, I won't give in

hehe can I say I'm in love with my little credit clip? Too short, but hey its cool. And pretty much everyone has it now and they all love it to :D Now I just wish I could make an episode or something to go with it :( Damn Kern - why couldn't he do the spin-off?

So I feel obligated to explain a little of what was happening with me yesterday. Again totally stupid reasons but, bleh, I'm gonna air it all anyway. When it comes to things that are important to me, I don't pay attention to anything that's happening in the world. I dislike the badness, and I abhor war (reminds me too much of the grandfather I never met :( ). The thing most important to me is my friends. Always has been, always will be. But for the majority of my life all my friends have either let me down, decieved me, or just plain betrayed my trust. It's just one of many reasons I find it hard to believe people anymore.

Now I got a little upset yesterday afternoon (as I said, over the stupidest thing) because Julie told us Drew was back and he posted - and I saw in my search that Zarina had also and I wondered why my dff source hadn't told me about it. Okay you can tell that's not a major issue, right? Yet still I got down about it (relay back to last paragraph). And then I got even more upset when Mel left and didn't come back, because I thought she'd left due to my mood (yes, self-blame rates highly on my insecurity list). See but there's one difference with the Musketeers (and this is including the honorary ones - you know who you are) in that if they upset me, whether they realise it or not they easily rectify it in a few hours, if not minutes. My other friends don't do that. My other friends don't even seem to realise that it's affected me, or they just gleefully like to watch me sink further into depression. Either way, I don't care, that's what makes me value the Musketeers so much, that they can always be there for me, and that they are TRUE friends. See, good example of how they fix things, when Zarina came on last night she straight away told us about Drew, I didn't even have to inquire. She even explained why she hadn't told me (the fact that I was in bed and she hadn't seen me until that moment). And so I was neverending hugging and thanking her, because I have absolute faith in these friends of mine and I know just how special to me they are.

Okay and now my time is up :( But that's the main thing I wanted to say anyway. Thank you. And to my TRUE friends - I love you. (Side-note to self: Stop writing things that make you cry *kick*)

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