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Darkness & Love

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There's rosemary,
that's for remembrance.
Pray you, love, remember.
And there's pansies, that's for thoughts.

-- Ophelia
Hamlet Act IV, Scene V

Sole reason I didn't cry. Monday was Elisa's death on Cold Case, and instead of having to wait almost the entire episode for sight of the girl, we were delievered the news right at the beginning. It was short, to the point, and well I have to say kind of emotionless. And I didn't cry because I saw the poetic license in it all - just like Ophelia (my favourite Shakesperian character) she was driven to suicide by madness and rejected love, and in the same fashion - they both threw themselves into the river to do the deed (albeit it was actually the bay on Cold Case, but I do believe they said river at one point, as if I hadn't noticed the similarity). It was a little strange actually that I felt relieved - relieved in the way it had happened. There was no emerging of my fic, probably the thing I was most scared and upset about, for a) there are so many times I've written things that have come true & b) that whole storyline was an extension of myself - as I've said before, a lot of me has been invested in that fic, things that have happened, things that are thought of. And you know what, being as so many days have passed since the eppie, I'm not going to go into it because it's no longer a huge priority to my mind, and because I really don't want to make myself cry again. Let's just say certain comments and thoughts made me think of something else which stopped my brain working on B for a while. *nods*

I can't actually remember anything else I planned on putting in here cause all my friendlies gave me stuff to do :D So my journal shall be all prettiness now (well, entry wise LOL) and for the sake of neatness, I shall cut the rest.

Name 10 celebrities that you find attractive, post their picture, and then tag 5 of your friends
Oh, just for the record, I'm not gonna tag anyone else cause Ellen already tagged them :P And, also, I thought I'd be sneaky and do my ten guys list AND a 10 girls one (a) Can't make me choose :P


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01. Wes Ramsey (actor)
02. Drew Fuller (actor)
03. Nicholas Brendan (actor)
04. Ewan McGregor (actor)
05. Glenn Quinn (actor RIP)
06. Daniel Jones (musician)
07. John Rzeznik (musician)
08. Jeremy London (actor)
09. Jensen Ackles (actor)
10. Mark Phillippoussis (sports star)


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01. Marisol Nichols (actress)
02. Amy Lee (musician)
03. Holly Marie Combs (actress)
04. Amy Acker (actress)
05. Sarah McLachlan (musician)
06. Eliza Dushku (actress)
07. Jessica Alba (actress)
08. Sarah Michelle Gellar (actress)
09. Jennifer Connelly (actress)
10. Jena Malone (actress)

Apathy, well I can say your lucky, in some ways.
You see Apathy is no emotion, basically you
don't care. But that does not make you a bad
person. Some of my friends are apathetic and I
love them, but it wouldn't hurt to care a
little more. Trust me life hurts, most people
who are apathetic do it cause they were hurt.
But don't worry, life is pain, its also
pleasure. Good luck. (please vote)

What Emotion Dominates you?
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Um, yup that can be true, I can not care about something that everyone else does *nods* That's cause of me and my tiny tiny universe I wanna live in cause everything else is badness.

You dont get angry a lot, but you build it up
inside, you hide your feelings letting people
walk all over you. This is not good, you are
the worst type of anger, because when it comes
out its like a volcano and I promise you will
hurt someone you love, this is what I am.

How Angry Are you? (Worth taking, Five outcomes, pictures)
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Well this is true *nods* I don't get angry muchly. Have to be provoked a lot, and then I just go for it.

Great Friend
You are a great friend, and it shows. You are
willing to do anything for friends, just to
make them happy. But this mainly leads toward
the sex you prefer. But you would still do
anything for any friend, even aquantences. This
can lead to you being walked over all the time,
and letteing people take advantage of you. But
your the best friend to have.

What kind of Friend are you? (finished with pics)
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*grumble* Think I knew that. Friends should be nice *nods* and I should only have nice ones cause most of mine do tend to walk all over me :(

~*~Result nr 3~*~

Your power is: The ability to fly

Explanation: This powers speaks pretty
much for itself. Though you don't need wings
for this power,you can fly anyway. Some people
may consider it as telekinesis since they can
also fly, but you can't make material things
move like they can. This ability could be a
relaxing activity when you want to get away
from everyday troubles. Also it is good when
sneaking upon an enemy since it makes no sound.
When going over to the "dark side"
the power could be used to harrass and break
into building through windows etc.
You are quite similar to this power since you
like to have your head in the clouds.
Supernatural things amuse while ordinary life
does not. If your daydreaming has gotten a
little too far you might be zooned out all the
time, even when you are having a conversation.
Your desires and/or goals tend to be
unrealistic even if you know those would
probably never happen. Travelling is something
you would be interested in doing since seeing
exotic scenery fits with your fantasies of
escaping your plain life. You can also have
some creative ability (writer, playing an
instrumen etc) that interests you.
Negative aspects: The whole reason you
may be escaping life could be fear of being let
down by it. So if that would come to happen,
and an important dream had been crushed you
could get depressed.

What Power is Compatible With You?
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Incredibly true. All true. Never wanted the flying power, but hey I get telekinesis with it? *jumps up and down* I have a Chris power! *yay*

Your word is: Helpless. You have so many emotions
bottled up inside and you are at the verge of a
breaking point. Life is just too painful
nowadays and you don't want to live it more.
You secretly wish someone would show their love
for you and save you from your dark thoughts.
You feel there is nothing you can do and may
turn to self-harming to relieve the stress. You
are also often depressed and may have thoughts
of death. Life didn't turn out the way you
wanted it to.

What dark word represents you? (anime pics and 7 outcomes)
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Um... yes? Well previous entries will show that *nods* People who know me know that. And *cheer* I get a sword! :D

Rafael. You're most like the ArchAngel of Healing.
You want people to shape up, and you nag. But
you mean well, and you're well loved despite
it. Or because of it. You bring the donuts
even as you tell people to eat more veggies.

Which ArchAngel are you most like?
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Oh he's hot. LOL. Yup I'm a healer, I'm someone who's always trying to fix things, help people, occassionally I'll nag... did someone say donuts? (a)

You are sad because of your grief

Why are you sad? [amazing pictures] For darker people
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No comment? I don't even feel like I need to comment people should know me well enough by now.

Life is all about balance. Darkness can't be
without light, and light can't be without
darkness. You see everything through different
angeles to gain perspective over situations.
You act rather rational and people can find you
stiff and/or emotionless due to this. Life is
not really that good to you, yet it's not so
bad. Like everything else, you need to balance
it in order to find peace.

How do you see life?
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*finally ranks one same as Melly* LOL Bound to happen ;) Um... ok well I can say I see things from all perspectives and it actually helps to understand everyone's point of view better. When writing something it is hard sometimes to switch from one person to another so quickly, but it's good. Life is... hectic leading to the lack of balance. I think I just need to do everything that calms me and makes me happy to keep me at peace.

Your Evanescence song is: Imaginary
The real world has taken a toll on you and you
don't want to endure it anymore. It is harsh
and hard to live in, so your solution is
dreaming. You dream and have fantazies and turn
it to your new reality. Zooming-out is not an
unusuall thing for you to do. You can also have
an artistique side in you, whether it is
writing, drawing, singing etc.

I know well what lies beyond my sleeping refuge
The nightmare I built my own world to

What Evanescence song are you?[many outcomes + wonderful pictures]
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Oh, surprising, I'm in a world of fantasy, a dreamscape *has horrible visions of Freddy Kreuger attacking her like he did Alice* But it is true, I'd rather spend my life sleeping it away than living it, because things always seem better in your dreams, even if they are bad ones.

... so that's the end of quizness ...

Oh, thought of something (a) have been psychic muchly this week. Had flashes of Mari early Monday morning (I thought it was to do with Cold Case - and seriously I was getting FLASHES, I actually saw things! Never happened to me b4. Was weirdness :S ) then discovered that at that exact moment she was at a premiere for a new film called Sky High. I'm obsessed much with how cute one of those pics is (the one I cropped for that cut section in fact ;) ). It's even my wallpaper at work which has led to probably 6 ppl or something asking me about her cause she was "so pretty". :D I feel like such a huge Marisol fan. hehe. Other psychicness, predicted my dad almost getting run over by a car (saw that one nicely happening too - he was lucky he looked up last second). Er... Zarina called me one (a) There was something else but I can't actually remember... oh well.

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