February 15th, 2005

Grave Lying

There's a giant behind you...

Ah I love my girl *hugz* She had a nice slice of air-time in Cold Case last night though I still wanted more. I always want more insight into my fave characters. Elisa is such a cutie, and I have such an affiliation with her. She's someone who's eternally sweet, who's always getting teased about something really mediocre, who says something with good intentions that gets taken completly the wrong way. She's not altogether there, and I have a feeling neither am I, although I'm not at the extremity of needing medication or a straightjacket. I was doing some thinking today (generated by the misreading of a comment last night) about my repression of the bad place. It's somewhere I don't like to visit, but I know at the moment the door is being left open because of all the writing I'm doing. I don't want to go back there. I had a not very nice character named Corey spring from there for an RPG, and had to plead with my friends to kill him off. As fun as he was to play, I was losing complete control of him. I didn't like him running rampant. He really was starting to scare me, and for something that comes from inside my head that scares me even more. I spent a lot of time living in the bad place about 10 or 11 years ago. I don't like reading the things I wrote back then. It's horrible that I could even think that way, or been so dark and down... I don't really want to know where it would have led to if I had not had some occasional good fortune and a good friend to back me.

Um, well I have to go to bed shortly, so I'm not going to elaborate any further on musings of my mind today. I wrote a little more Bianca fic, so I've only got a page and a half to go before I can actually post an update. Tried to take some of the quizzes the others did so results as follows:

How evil are you?

Neutral? Hmm. So I have to be in the middle. :( Does that mean I can swing either way? hehe.

What Type of Villain are You?


hehe *creeps up to her friends* BOO! :D So I'm sneaky. I don't even know how I got there! But u know I guess things are done well and in secret with me :S Eh, ok, I'm just making stuff up now. hehe.

So I should be going to bed now. *sigh* So that's it from me today.
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