July 28th, 2005

Grave Lying

Darkness & Love

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There's rosemary,
that's for remembrance.
Pray you, love, remember.
And there's pansies, that's for thoughts.

-- Ophelia
Hamlet Act IV, Scene V

Sole reason I didn't cry. Monday was Elisa's death on Cold Case, and instead of having to wait almost the entire episode for sight of the girl, we were delievered the news right at the beginning. It was short, to the point, and well I have to say kind of emotionless. And I didn't cry because I saw the poetic license in it all - just like Ophelia (my favourite Shakesperian character) she was driven to suicide by madness and rejected love, and in the same fashion - they both threw themselves into the river to do the deed (albeit it was actually the bay on Cold Case, but I do believe they said river at one point, as if I hadn't noticed the similarity). It was a little strange actually that I felt relieved - relieved in the way it had happened. There was no emerging of my fic, probably the thing I was most scared and upset about, for a) there are so many times I've written things that have come true & b) that whole storyline was an extension of myself - as I've said before, a lot of me has been invested in that fic, things that have happened, things that are thought of. And you know what, being as so many days have passed since the eppie, I'm not going to go into it because it's no longer a huge priority to my mind, and because I really don't want to make myself cry again. Let's just say certain comments and thoughts made me think of something else which stopped my brain working on B for a while. *nods*

I can't actually remember anything else I planned on putting in here cause all my friendlies gave me stuff to do :D So my journal shall be all prettiness now (well, entry wise LOL) and for the sake of neatness, I shall cut the rest.

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Oh, thought of something (a) have been psychic muchly this week. Had flashes of Mari early Monday morning (I thought it was to do with Cold Case - and seriously I was getting FLASHES, I actually saw things! Never happened to me b4. Was weirdness :S ) then discovered that at that exact moment she was at a premiere for a new film called Sky High. I'm obsessed much with how cute one of those pics is (the one I cropped for that cut section in fact ;) ). It's even my wallpaper at work which has led to probably 6 ppl or something asking me about her cause she was "so pretty". :D I feel like such a huge Marisol fan. hehe. Other psychicness, predicted my dad almost getting run over by a car (saw that one nicely happening too - he was lucky he looked up last second). Er... Zarina called me one (a) There was something else but I can't actually remember... oh well.
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