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Why am I still coming down? 
4th-Aug-2005 09:39 pm
Grave Lying
Yesterday was a bad day. Not specifically for me, everyone else was getting yelled at mostly, or doing the yelling. At one stage it was directed at me but that just pissed me off and funnily enough we were all like "doesn't matter, Julie is so going to get them back when Melly comes over" Unfortunately the constant bad vibes started to affect me and I was in a very down state by the time I reached home. I don't know why it's becoming so hard to come out of it. The past two days Melly has showered me with gifts - Wy updates, actual pressies in the mail (today) that perked me up and... I dunno, I go shopping and get annoyed at them for not having what I want, for not having the size I want, for not being as good as they should have been. I came home with two skirts and a belt (I was tempted to just leave everything behind, but I convinced myself the belt would make it work *sigh* Was desperate for something).

I've been downloading a whole heap of instrumentals and gothic tunes in the hope of finding something good. The one I'm listening to is probably the least crappiest. :( Even the Evanescence tune failed to overly impress. I want some new stuff from them! Getting so impatient now.

I've been overly getting nightmares lately. Thankfully it wasn't on behalf of B like the other night, but last night was awfully bloody and scary with people I love being kidnapped and things :( Hmm thinking I'm sounding depressing much. Can I say how sweet Mel is? :D Love what she sent. She's such a god-send to me, just like the rest of my musketeers *hugz*


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Comments 
4th-Aug-2005 12:21 pm (UTC)
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I just wanted to make you happiness. Which is why I was hoping that it would get to you today and last night I was secretly wishing I'd sent it a day earlier 'cause I just want you to be happiness 'cause your such a special person who only deserves happiness.

Secondly I almost feel responsible for your nightmares *looks at what else she's writing in a different window*. I'm starting to think you might be mildly telepathic and have a link to my brain :( which would be only badness for everyone.

Now you know here's something I was thinking - then realised it would be an altogether bad idea but still it kinda sounds like a bit of fun. So you know how I'm pretty much determined to come to Sydney for my birthday even though I didn't realise it was on a Tuesday because I can't read calander's to save my life? Well here's the thing (apart from wanting to find a job and run away to stay with you in Sydney 'cause I'd rather run than stay and fight) I was thinking we could build a blanket fort, and drink milo and read Hamlet and watch Wessy/Mari/Drew/Freddy Krueger just 'cause it's sounds like fun. Now two other options is for me to bring my laptop over and attept to have msn convo's while sitting 2ft from each other and the other one is to just relax and play with the puppies and Wy (because I was going to bring him with me because I'm weird).

*shrug* I'm nut's aren't I sweetness?

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I like taking up a lot of space :D
4th-Aug-2005 04:21 pm (UTC) - No subject - I ramble yo!
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Hey I'm back again, and just a little bored, because I'm still procrastinating. Argh, :( Randomiser hates me it's playing "Missing" by Evanescence again :( It's funny 'cause I love but hate that song (and a couple of other's) 'cause it makes me feel *-) well like what Amy's singing about. Don't like feeling that way. :( Oh I'm going to see La Boheme on Saturday the 20th of August (So I won't be here :( ) which is exciting, but not for you 'cause you won't get me til late. :(

Did you know how shiny you are? 'Cause your like super shiny. I want this chapter to be finished 'cause what I just wrote made me feel sick. And I really don't like it but it fits in with where the stories going and it's the only way to get it going. BUT :O I think it's possibly the best written chapter so far. :$ How pigheaded am I? I miss ya boo :( I should be sleeping like you are but I'm trying to get this done. Why can I only really write at night? Am I really a vampire? Do I spam your journal really badly? I'm sorry for being a pain. I love you. (A) Your the bomb diggity. Hehe ♥ Boo is ♥ :D
5th-Aug-2005 01:02 am (UTC) - Can't think of a subject
Just wanted to say that I'm sorry again for wigging out and thinking something was wrong. I'm sorry you had a bad day and I hate nightmares like that! Umm, anyway I'm looking forward to updating IDBT again, but I'll wait until you and Mel do. I'm kind of worried about Nat, she wasen't on last night and she hasen't been on so far tonight. I might send her an email just to check on her. Anyway, tomorrow should be fun, once I get off of work, then maybe we can chat a little bit. I'll ttyl. *hugs*
5th-Aug-2005 02:06 am (UTC)
*Is bored-like again* HI! I misses you LOL. So right now I'm listening to Sarah McLachlan (Still LOL Been listening to her since 9.30 and it's 11.30 now so 2 hours - okay it's not that long) and I'm talking to Julie (the other one - not you 'cause you aren't here). I like spam, not the so called lunch meat stuff 'cause that's just gross and I wouldn't even poke it with a stick - but this kind of spam. I realise I could be doing other things with my time. I even have an idea of what I could be doing. But I like to think of spamming your journal as some kind of weird way of letting you know I care. (A) I could go spam other's but I don't want them to think I'm weird :$ Whereas I don't really mind if you think I'm wierd LOL. Aren't I fun. :D I'mworking on another present - You can claim it as your own if you like. Hopefully it'll be done later on today 'cause I don't want it to drag on much longer - got other stuff to do. Not that it's all that important. *sigh*

Anyway I better not keep this going, I better get back to channelling Wy. Why is it I can really only write at night? :( *HUGS* *HUGS* *HUGS *HUGS* *HUGS* *HUGS* *HUGS*

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