Thank u everyone for your kind words. I am on the mend. I'm trying to be patient with myself, even though undoubtedly I'm trying to push things back to normal. What was said was very touching, and in effect made me a little teary today to know that so many people are there for me. I think at one point I was lying to myself and trying to convince myself if I had done something that was mentioned that I never before thought of, that I might have been able to prevent this, but I know that's not true. One person can solve one problem, but they can't solve every one. But thank you everyone for what u said, it meant a lot to receive so much support.
Today was interesting I guess. Not a lot going on. Played the Wy/B soundtrack cause I thought that would cheer me up, although the first few songs nearly had me crying again :$ But it was okay after that. Um... Helen at work I think finally figured something was up with me, because after I came back from lunch (where I shed the most tears for today, but not many cause I was trying to stop myself from crying again. I don't want to keep being unhappy, and dammit I was supposed to be writing fic!) she told me to come sit and talk to her for half an hour about our Gold Coast holiday at the end of the year so that way I was talking about something fun thereby thinking happiness. She did have a go at me for being negative too :$ But anyway... I appreciated that. It was really nice of her to do.
So since I was listening to Wy/B all day and browsing the prettiness in lj for some time, I decided to try to attempt making some icons. I'm not brilliant, everything I do is wordiness and visuals, so it's basically words and pics and I hope I've just made some kind of attempt to make them look decentage. :( 01. 02.03. 04.05. 06.07.01.
Marisol Nichols (aka Bianca - Charmed)07.
Wes Ramsey (aka Wyatt - Charmed)
That is all *bows* Thank u.