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I looked into your eyes and felt so alone 
13th-Sep-2005 08:28 pm
Grave Lying
Um... I don't really know what to say. I don't really have time to write some big elaborate review on what's been happening. I've been to 2 free concerts at Star City Casino - Eskimo Joe on Friday and Diesel on Sunday. They were both really good. Earned sore feet both nights. At least driving I got home half an hour earlier on Sunday than I did on Friday.

Work has been frustrating and boring. Quite the usual lately. I have more interest in cruising the net to see if my net buddies have left anything for me to read than doing my actual work. I'd rather be outside writing my fic than having to drag myself back to work and endure more sleepiness from the lack of sleep I'm getting. I still can't sleep properly. It's annoying.

Felt overwhelmingly guilty today cause Chris Luder (aka the wiggle) got kicked from Idol in the first round :( Dunno how the hell that happened, he was rated in the betting 2nd to win. But I felt guilty beause I didn't vote for him, because I wasn't home to watch the show, because by the time I finished the results show started and Andrew G said we had 5 mins to place a vote, and I voted for Lee cause I thought he was in more trouble. I thought wrong. And now one of my favourites is gone :( It's so wrong, an injustice, because his friend got in, he got kicked.

I've been wrestling with my emotions all day, never staying consistent. I don't want to end up going where I was a few weeks ago. It's so hard to hold on. So many times yesterday and today I've wanted to cry but, as always, have held it back. I almost cried writing my fic because I poured so much of it out into what Bianca was thinking. I can't help associating with her, after all the things I've built around her, knowing we have so much in common. Sometimes I wish the life I was writing was mine because, to an extent, she has been able to break free. Because, even though she doesn't realise it at the moment, there's people there who love her.

Anyway, trying to use my little "therapy" to deal with things, I did 3 Bianca AVs. They're not the best, but they're very much how I'm feeling.


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All AVs of the beautiful Marisol Nichols who plays Bianca on Charmed


"15 FEET OF SNOW" - DIESEL
These days
The sun ain't shinin' in my room
At night
I've been feelin' angry at the moon
Maybe I've been losin' my mind
But the things you hide so deep in your heart
Well I know I can find

I'll go wherever your love light shows
Through fifteen feet of snow
If that's where I have to go, oh-oh-hoh

I looked
Into your eyes and felt so alone
Is that you
The lights are on but nobody's home, hoh-hoh
Maybe I've been losin' my mind
But the things you hide so deep in your heart
Well I know I can find

I'll go wherever your love light shows
Through fifteen feet of snow
If that's where I have to go
Just to feel your glow
Hoh-oh-hoh

Hoh...
Hoh-oh-hoh-hoh

And I'll go wherever your love light shows
Through fifteen feet of snow
If that's where I have to go
Just to feel your glow
Hoh-oh-hoh

I'll go (go)
Wherever your love light shows (shows)
Through fifteen feet of snow (snow)
Oh-oh-oh
Yeah I'll go (go)
Wherever your love light shows (shows)
Through fifteen feet of snow (snow)
Oh-oh-oh
Comments 
13th-Sep-2005 01:05 pm (UTC)
Hello my beautiful. *hug* I want to make it all better you know? :( Please take care boo, I wish I was going to be home tomorrow, but this is my penance for not going the other day. But even so -IF you need me, I'll have my phone so you can text me and say whatever you need to. Hopefully won't be too long. *sigh* most of the time is spent travelling. :( Wish you could come with me. :( I don't know how to make it better, but it will be okay one day.

*hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* *hugs*

u lots boo

P.S. I found the clip I was looking for :$ It was Crawling LOL. Want to send it to you. :$
13th-Sep-2005 04:23 pm (UTC) - Know that song!
I feel so bad for not being on when you are, I have so much I want to tell you! I think I'll PM you today in between everything I have to do.:) I'll have something for you to read hopefully by this weekend, once I get my two math classes out of the way! *hugs* Sorry to hear that Chris didn't make it to the next round and your avs are beautiful as always!
14th-Sep-2005 04:23 pm (UTC)
oi! You didn't update this one and I need to spam you teehee. (Yesh I realise the teehee is gay but =P whatchya gon' do 'bout it?). I wanted to show you this, 'cause :o makes me think of you in some parts. :$

I want to trip inside your head
Spend the day there...
To hear the things you haven't said
And see what you might see

I want to hear you when you call
Do you feel anything at all?
I want to see your thoughts take shape
And walk right out


Freedom has a scent
Like the top of a new born baby's head

The songs are in your eyes
I see them when you smile
I've seen enough I'm not giving up
On a miracle drug

Of science and the human heart
There is no limit
There is no failure here sweetheart
Just when you quit...


I am you and you are mine
Love makes no sense of space
And time...will disappear
Love and logic keep us clear
Reason is on our side, love...


The songs are in your eyes
I see them when you smile

I've had enough of romantic love
I'd give it up, yeah, I'd give it up
For a miracle, a miracle drug, a miracle drug

God I need your help tonight

Beneath the noise
Below the din
I hear your voice
It's whispering
In science and in medicine
"I was a stranger
You took me in"


The songs are in your eyes
I see them when you smile

I've had enough of romantic love
I'd give it up, yeah, I'd give it up
For a miracle, miracle drug

Miracle, miracle drug


Yesh if you guessed correctly it's one of my fave's off of "How to dismantle an atomic bomb" (not using cap's I'm lazy). And Yesh it is miracle drug :( tis now boo's song. :$ Please don't think I'm weird. *point's to shiny av* (A) Harry and Draco *snicker* :$
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